Back to reality – a vague expression I have overused. I have said it after my day off, after the weekend, a vacation, a party, and when I wake up and face the next day of my life.
I know that I am not alone. I have heard it randomly from people too.
I did not feel the need to be back to the daily and usual grind and be like everyone else.It’s sad that after many wonderful things I always ended up with the thought that I had to go back to my normal life after.
I got used to it, as I kept doing the things which take me away from the reality that I have known ever since.
Working in an office six days a week, and waiting for my next one day off and break(s) to come was dreadful.
It was not a life full of negativity, but I felt like I always need to stay away from living it. It was the kind of lifestyle that I couldn’t imagine to be living the same way again.
So, I made up my mind and just created a life that I don’t need to escape from.
It was a test of my courage and a review of all things I have learned.
Now, I have a life that I do not need to forcefully ask my inner self to go back to.
Is this the life everyone wants to live?
Of course, no.
Do I still have problems?
Am I seeking for approval?
There are even days when I feel sad, uninspired, and too hard on myself.
I just breathe deeply and the negative feelings are gone.
There’s no perfect life but I just constantly remind myself that I don’t need to live like everyone else.
Currently, I am living my own ideal life. The one defined by my inner soul with no limits, no exact hashtags, and no standards. I am not expecting a lot of things for now to happen, but I am the best version of myself: happier, more adventurous, and gutsy.
I have waited for this. This life is such a big adventure!
Literally, I don’t want this to end.
I just do some minor twists and changes on something, but this is the best reality that I got hooked up to.
I realized that I am the best life guide for myself.
I just need to be happy and to be able to live up with my own decisions and choices.
After all, I find it exciting to challenge my whole being to pursue my grandeur plans.
To my passport,
I’m still patiently waiting for you to bring home the good news.
For the meantime, I will enjoy the moments that I will be surely missing, soon.