I wanted to pursue blogging a few years ago. I know that I had inspiring or good stories to tell. It’s not overconfidence, but it is fueling my own spirit.
I had few blogs and wasted a lot of my time creating posts before and never share them with people (or maybe close friends). I just deleted all the posts. I didn’t know what is going on with me in those times. I was too conscious about the internet and forgot the trust I had given to myself. It became a habit for a long time.
Creating blogs and just delete them – for no good reasons. Wasn’t it a waste of ideas and photoshop skills? It was really weird and I was not just as confident today about myself. At some point, I asked myself: Why are you virtually shy?
I had so many insecurities about sharing things over the internet. It’s not my kind of game to talk about my life because I find it so narcissistic. But someone is calling me, I will trust my instincts. Now my life has changed, so does are my perspectives. I have learned that I just don’t have to worry that much. In that way, I will live a happier and a free life doing the things what I love the most.
Thank you, April 2016 for giving me the best time to finally make me realize how to overcome my own issues. After meeting up with the awesome Trisha Belarmino of PS I’m On My Way, there was a positive shift in my mind. No, we did not talk about it. My change of thoughts came out naturally after seeing her. Thank you, Trish.
So here are the reasons why I am not really confident to share my thoughts online before. The reasons are really honest. They are not filtered with fake emotions.
Only the rich people deserve to blog.
I don’t have anything. I am poor. I live in a house which is still waiting to be fixed and renovated. I have no money. My clothes are mostly from thrift stores. I eat ordinary foods. I don’t have a car. I am struggling. I don’t have the latest phones. I haven’t been abroad. I had my first plane ride last 2014. Too many insecurities back then, I couldn’t even imagine. I had this mentality that when rich people blog they will not look over acting, overrated, trying hard, and frustrated for others. Simply, because they have it all. Blogging is for the rich. One my craziest idea ever. They have a lot of followers too, who are mostly poor (if not all) and envious of their lavish lifestyle, travels, and fame. I have nothing against them. I am just being honest. I mean, who will follow a poor-bloggers’ blog? Who will be envious of a poor life? But please, don’t get me wrong, most people with good creative taste are young and poor.
I just had to let go of the fact that people will say that I am trying hard, overacting, and a frustrated blogger. They will not let me grow.
A good point to remember though that blogging is for everyone. There are no standards and requirements.
I’m not a technical writer.
I have difficulties when to use ‘in’ and ‘on’ in a sentence. My vocabulary is very basic. I forgot what present progressive and past progressive are. I couldn’t remember what the tenses of the verb now. What a gerund, preposition, and linking verbs are. Yes, I am not confident with my writing skills. Expect some errors along my posts and in my life. I use simple words. I hate complexity. I hate writers who try too hard to make their words difficult to understand, but the meaning is so easy to forget. I don’t like it when you let someone open a dictionary just to understand a writer’s post. Or maybe, I am not just part of their market. I am a lazy reader. In the case that you can find grammatical errors in my future posts, don’t hesitate to tell me. I like to have someone teach me everything again on what coherence, parallelism, and effective communication are. Proper punctuations too, they are important.
I will keep it very simple.
No one’s going to follow my blog.
I always think about it. Do you really need followers or readers if you have a blog? And then, I was told by a good and intelligent friend that you don’t have to blog for others just do it for yourself. If you like to do something, always do it to make yourself happy. He was right and I ended up making this post.
I am gay.
Definitely, a lame reason. Here’s the deal, before I always think that I am not believable and no one will trust me when it comes to words unless we are friends. People will just make fun of me. Now, I am confident that being gay will take me to places wherein I will be happy. It will inspire me to post about it. No more dramas!
Everyone is special.
It’s never too late.
An old line, but really helpful. We can always have the new year of our lives tomorrow or the next day. I just celebrated the first day of my 2016 last April twenty-four. It feels great that there are no rules on how we start and end things. This is it, life is about choices. Make your own rules.
My name is Michael, twenty-something and yes, I am blogging (it’s not too late).